Today has been such a long day. Thank goodness for Starbucks, seriously. I would not be surviving right now if I wasn't drinking my Cinnamon Dulce latte =)
I had classes from 11:30 to about 1:30pm. Went to go kill some time at the library before I went to FSM to go pick up a few things. Thank you very much, you know who you are. Went back to the library until 5 ish... and from there Bre & I went to the costume store to look for her costume & so that I can pick up my fishnets. I saw my costume in the store, but sure enough.. my size wasn't there. Just for shits&giggles, I tried on the medium/large size and DAMN! That dress is going to be short.. I hope it's isn't too short. Hopefully it fits just perfectly. Anyway, returned back to school to finish that stupid womens studies midterm. Taking a break, RJ, Sunshine, & I went to go watch Christian & his fraternity play football. Of course, being the nerdy girl that I am, I tried to finish the midterm out on the field.. that didn't last long.
And here I am... typing up a freakin' blog because I'm trying to get all my distractions out of the way. Okay, time to finish this damn midterm. GRRRR!
I've been wanting to update this xanga for the longest time... && I'm going to try my best without getting distracted, lol. There's just so much to cover & update on that it's making me not want to update.
School
It is halfway into my third semester and at this moment, grade-wise, everything is okay. I'm taking five classes because I figured that I should since I didn't take a second class during the summer and because all the classes I had enrolled in seemed to be fairly easy. Ehh to the easy part. They've all had their challenging moments and I've been able to get over them. Today I just found out that I have an A in my Composition class and a B in my World Lit class. I'm surprised! Especially since I never read for my world lit class and have pretty much bombed three different quizzes. Just last week, RJ, John, & I held our student lecture for our Women Studies class, & they LOVED the videos. Yay =] Even though we waited the week of (which we said we wouldn't do,) we were able to get everything done. So basically, school is okay.. but I can definitely apply myself more when it comes to studying & paying attention in class.
Friendships
I remember when everyone would say "What are you going to do when Angie's gone?!" haha.. Everyone always saw us together whether it be dining out, hanging out, shopping, partying, or working; we were almost always together. We're still as close as ever since she's moved to San Diego. I was able to visit her and Randon when the guys & myself went to San Diego back in July and just a few weeks ago she had visited Vegas. I miss our random shopping trips and always being able to just go to her when something wrong happened. I love my Angie =)
I've made so many more close friends within these past couple of months and have "rekindled" old friendships as well. Every Thursday the ladies and I have been making an effort to hang out. Last Thursday we had another dress up dinner at Agave. I didn't realize that we keep doing Mexican! Next time we're switching it up to Claimjumpers! ..& not so dressed up anymore, lol. Oh & speaking of, pretty much everyone works at Express now. Crazy.. but it's nice.
Relationships/Love
My last couple of blogs on here were about my last break up. That had to be my most serious relationship out of the two that I had been in previously. Surprisingly, I recovered from it quickly. Since then, I've technically been single. After that, I've been smarter not to jump back into anything too suddenly and since him there hasn't really been anyone that can compare... Okay okay, so there was only one instance where I was actually "talking" with someone, but that was short-lived.
There's so much more that I can say & ramble about, but considering that I'll be making this public.. I'm better off not explaining how my relationship sector of my life is at the moment. Just know that I'm doing my own thing, I'm happy, and that whatever happens, happens..
General
Halloween weekend is coming up and I'm super excited. I ordered my costume on-line so I wouldn't have to deal with the stores this year, unlike last year. Last year, Angie & I went shopping last minute and that was crazy. But before I can party, I have a midterm due on Thursday.. OHH the joy!
Oh, my favorite book "P.S. I Love You" by Cecelia Ahern was actually made into a movie! This book was amazing and I can't wait for the movie =]
honestly, I've never been so content & happy with life. I'm surrounded by the people I love & care for most. these past couple of weeks should have been hard on me, but it hasn't. I'm surprised with how well I'm handling things.. and I know I'm not the only one that is surprised.
School is great, even though at times it seems like I'm uberly stressed out. I think I overly stress myself to get things done. My grades are fine at the moment. && I'm super super super happy that I was (1) able to get $1900 in grants (2) got reimbursed $960 for the Millenium Scholarship I was suppose to have (3) I have student loans. I have nothing to worry about anymore.. not like I should have worried, but still.
Last weekend was so horrible, but fun. Ended up getting wasted to the point I have never ever allowed myself to go. Thank goodness I was with Angie & Nhi, and that Ryan & Ralph watched over us. So much happened that night.. Talk about being vulnerable emotional-wise. But yeah, totally wasted & my dad wanted me home.. couldn't drive home drunk so I had him pick me up. OOOH THE JOY! It was drama & hectic. But the next day we were fine. That's how my parents always are, they forgive me easily. Never again will I be getting drunk like that.
It's cute how things are.. they've always been cute. 2007 has been a crazy one, even right after the clock struck 12am. I should have thought about it & taken it into consideration. Not like I regret anything.. I've learned so much & have "grown up" in such a short amount of time. I guess all these little incidents are all learning experiences for me... I'm scared of what is to be said or for stuff finally being out in the open. I'm scared of things changing.. but I really have nothing to lose, so I shouldn't be scared. When it had all started, I was scared to show or explain how I was feeling.. but after all of the "experiences" I have gone through, I've learned to say what was on my mind.. and I'm thankful for that.
I'm thankful that I still have all my close friends that I thought I had lost during my recent relationship. Janneray is truly a great friend.. I've been able to vent & cry.. I can talk about my current situation and he tries to keep things positive! He knows me best & better than anyone else.. other than Angie of course. My best friends for life =]
what hurts more than losing you, is knowing you're not fighting to keep me.
i've done all that i could possibly do and i've never tried so hard to keep what i wanted. everything happens for a reason and i'm glad he happened to me. i've changed so much, for the good and i'm actually handling this really well. i wish he could just do the same. i'll always care and love him unconditionally and maybe someday we'll be able to be friends, or maybe not. whatever happens, happens. it's pretty much all on him, i've tried too hard and my vulnerability was all out there. there's nothing else i could do. it sucks that everything reminds me of him. i was at the mall andi walked by a few stores, they were all playing "our songs".. like "here in your arms" or "stolen".. hmph.
i'm glad to be surrounded by people who care and love for me. if it weren't for them, i'd probably be going crazy. i know who my true friends are, they are the ones that will stick with you through the good and the bad and i'm glad that i have many of them.
though i can't look forward to his phone calls or him coming back into town, i'm looking forward to how things will be from now on. since tuesday, life has been crazy with just how everything falls into place. maybe it's suppose to happen this way. to make me learn and appreciate. and maybe my relationship helped other realize a thing or two. whatever the reason shall be, i hope that he's happy. i just want him to be happy.
new year. new semester. new goals. new love. new dreams. everything is great.
i hate how lately i've been starting to let the little things get to me. it's always at this time of day that gets to me. i want this more than anything in the world, so why am i letting the small things affect me? i don't want this to become a habit.
